What a mixture of emotions over the last 24 hours...
Me and my mate decided to go to the game to clock up another away credit on our ST's and it was only £15
Only problem, when checking the train times the latest train we could get back to Paddington was the 22:12 if we wanted to get our last train out of Liverpool Street.
We decided seeing as it was only the Carling, Milk, Rumbelow, Capital cup and we thought we'd win easy

we'd do something we never do - leave 5 minutes before FT to ensure we get the train...as long as it was a once off.
So yesterday we meet after work, had a couple, then walked down to Emabankment and get the tube to Paddington, then onto Reading....F *cking train, it was stuck outside Reading for half an hour, got there, straight to cab rank, checked phone 1v0 down, get in cab 2v0 down, near the stadium 3v0 down.
''Shall we go back home?'' we say. NO, we get to our seat at 20:15 4v0 down.
I'm now hoping we lose by more just to prove we are that bad and that action needed to be taken, what I was watching was terrible.
Half time, 4v1, don't care, we won't get back, Wenger surely must go??
Giroud on 4v2, mixed up now, can we do it? NO . yes . NO, playing too bad.
Eisfeld on and we start looking dangerous, couple of near misses. I start to think maybe...?
It's that time...need to leave to get last train, we decide it's too late and go 'cos if we were going to get it back the chances had gone, feel dejected

are we doing right thing?
On bus back (along with loads of other Gooners) we hear 4v3, then 4v4, GUTTED/ANNOYED I left, but pleased!!
So as each goal went in I was pleased, but gutted/annoyed I didn't stay, felt like I was massively missing out and that everyone was having fun, except me!!
Got my train, and got in at 12:45am, watched secong half and ET on ITV,asleep at 2am up at 6am.
Still got mixed up emotions, pleased for the win, annoyed with myself for leaving, gutted for missing out,BUT, still part of me is as I was at HT, angry how sh*t we were and that the excitment and how well we came back will/might paper over the cracks???
